Even being "separated" from my husband since Dec and him knowing that I am dating I still have yet to have sex w/ anyone else. Now there are multiple reasons why but the one we are talking about today is...I'm scared!
When I was last single, which was long loooooong ago, I was still a teenager. I met Fat Guy and started dating him when I was 1 month from my 18 birthday. So I have never been out in the world as a single adult. Now in JR High I started "dating" a boy name Justin. He was my first everything(once in HS, jeez people). But soon after there was Dave, Matt, Kevin, Daniel, Matt, Scott... Yeah I'm not naming them all, point is once I got the..um...ball rolling there was no stopping me. I met random people and made choices w/o thinking them thru. I put myself in situations that when I look back now I am surprised I survived. But I had a lot of fun and I did survive.
Fast forward to now. Not a lot has actually changed out there, but I have. Like I have said before I am not saving myself and I am not even setting a time frame or anything on the waiting period to ride this ride. But I don't want to meet at a guys apt/house/beach house and don't want him to be expecting sex. Lets meet somewhere and go from there. Why is that too much to ask?
Also please don't have cyber/texting convo's w/ me before we meet in person. And I don't know if I prefer to see all your package either. I mean if you offer I'm not gonna say no bc curiosity gets the best of me, but I don't wanna know everything right away. Takes away the fun. Out of all the guys who started chatting w/ me and sent me pics, sexting/cybering, I have met 2 out of too many to count. Interest seems to go out the window if you share too much in the beginning.
Bottom line: Men and Women need to stick to the old school rules of dating. There can still be casual sex, but a common level of trust has to be established first. So coffee or something first, then we can get on w/ the spreading of syphagonaherpelaids.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Hello to Me
I love to blog. I love that I can blog at work. Otherwise I'd never do it. It helps me clear my head and a stress relief. A place to vent.
A quick little about me. I'm 28 and in a "Its Complicated" relationship. Not to get into it too much in the first post but I told my husband I wanted to separate in Dec of 2010. We agreed to stay together thru the holidays. I then gave him until the end of Feb to get a place of his own, during that time, he made ZERO attempt to find a place so I decided I would leave. I made attempts, I looked into places. Then he said he wasn't sure he could afford to keep the apt. So we went back to him leaving. We determined he needed to tell his parents what was going on so they (him and them) could figure out what would be best for him. Now going into April we got behind on bills (I missed work bc of medical reasons) so I need him to stay for another month or so, so we can get caught up.
Phew.
I am dating. I am fat. I am "single" for the first time in 10 years, 9 months, and 21 days. And dating as a fat woman for the first time in 10 years as an adult. OMG. What have I got myself into!!??! The dating world is insane. Ludicrous. Men (and women, I guess) want everything instantly. Sex first. Then maybe we'll date. I have men coming to me and the first words outta their mouths are would you F me? Uh... Maybe, but not for like 3 months. LOL And that's the thing, its not like I am saving my self, or even have a God forbid 3 date rule, but if you take me to dinner (bowling, bingo, hell anything) and we connect, I'm sure you will get to my girly bits sooner rather then later. Golly G.
Rant over. I'll be back.
<3 Fat Girl
A quick little about me. I'm 28 and in a "Its Complicated" relationship. Not to get into it too much in the first post but I told my husband I wanted to separate in Dec of 2010. We agreed to stay together thru the holidays. I then gave him until the end of Feb to get a place of his own, during that time, he made ZERO attempt to find a place so I decided I would leave. I made attempts, I looked into places. Then he said he wasn't sure he could afford to keep the apt. So we went back to him leaving. We determined he needed to tell his parents what was going on so they (him and them) could figure out what would be best for him. Now going into April we got behind on bills (I missed work bc of medical reasons) so I need him to stay for another month or so, so we can get caught up.
Phew.
I am dating. I am fat. I am "single" for the first time in 10 years, 9 months, and 21 days. And dating as a fat woman for the first time in 10 years as an adult. OMG. What have I got myself into!!??! The dating world is insane. Ludicrous. Men (and women, I guess) want everything instantly. Sex first. Then maybe we'll date. I have men coming to me and the first words outta their mouths are would you F me? Uh... Maybe, but not for like 3 months. LOL And that's the thing, its not like I am saving my self, or even have a God forbid 3 date rule, but if you take me to dinner (bowling, bingo, hell anything) and we connect, I'm sure you will get to my girly bits sooner rather then later. Golly G.
Rant over. I'll be back.
<3 Fat Girl
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